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If you have not seen me online or blog in a few days... PLEASE SEND HELP! For I fear the Minions have kidnapped me... I am undoubtedly in a closet tied to a chair with Rope and Duct-tape.
moongoddesswrote:
Hi Jax, I hope all is ok with you and the family, its been ages
I cannot get your number to work(the usual ireland ringing america hassle). Love and light, wendy xoxoxox
Feb. 6
Shari Masterswrote:
Hey Jax,
Where have you been? Hope everything is ok! JUst wanted to check in..
Jan. 3
karenwrote:
Hi Jaxs,
have a good weekend
keep smiling Kaz x
Aug. 15
angel of sarcasmwrote:
hopes you all feel better now, take it easy hun
July 30
karenwrote:
Hi Jaxs, Have a great weekend Keep smiling Kaz x
July 24
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October 23 Dreading Dr ApptDr. Appt Today. I had to change doctors because I changed insurance. Unfortunately, with Fibromyalgia, you have to go to a Rheumatologist. However, the disease is not widely accepted, despite the advertising campaign. I’ve had some horrible experiences dealing with doctors whom do not accept the condition, even though it is a documented illness in the medical journals. Then you have to account for the fact that not all Rheumatologists treat the illness, followed up by a good portion of those just want to medicate you into a walking coma. So I estimate that maybe 15% of Rheumatologists actually treat the illness, with a smaller portion educating themselves and their patients on the best ways to deal. With quite a bit of reading on local doctors that actually took my insurance I called and asked the nurse at the new Dr. Office about Fibromyalgia and how they treated the illness. So while I was dreading this appointment – you have to do the whole new patient thing – I might have lucked out. The appointment went well, the doctor was, kind, educated on the latest for the disease and we agreed on the illness management regime. Hopefully, this means I will start feeling better soon. June 21 Unspectacular QuirksUnspectacular Quirks?This was brought up by a former post from Ann. Everyone has quirks to their personalitly, its what either gives us a unique behavior, sense of humor, characher, style or persona, our individuality . I thought I could share mine with you then you... if only to make you laugh.
Quirk: a peculiarity of action or behavior. Truly unspectacular quirks: 1. I research anything I don't understand or am interested in... I will look it up then dump the information onto the next poor person so asks me about the subject... I am the bearer of an unbelievable amount of useless facts, and just plain random information... hence why I get the question “why would you know that information?” 2. I absolutely hate embarrassing moments on TV or in the movies... I will leave a room or change the channel for a moment to escape watching it ... to the point where if I have the remote I click to change the channel, I do it unconsciously... until the other people in the room yell "Hey"... However -- I don't embarrass.. it takes quite a lot for me to get embarrassed, or at least a tremendous amount of special effort is required... it is the 'when are these people ever going to see me again' theory .. and if it is in front of family or friends then they have probably seen me do stupider stuff. 3. I have the mommy disease of 'repeat'... when you are having a 'talk' with your children, ages can vary... but it is especially apparent when they are teenagers... they get that glossed over look in the eyes - signaling that they have left the conversation even though they are still physically there... Once you get going in the 'talk' and don't get a verbal response you 'repeat', sometimes the exact same words or you can say the same thing in several ways -- hoping beyond hope that it actually penetrated the 'kid force-field' – well it occasionally seeps into the rest of life -- I am good at catching it but still it is a quirk I can't seem to shake 4. I am completely unable to repeat a conversation I have had with anyone... If you say something to me even not more than 30 seconds ago.. I will summarize - paraphrase - rephrase - interpret - reword but I am mentally / physically unable to 'repeat' what you said .. I am talking if it is three words or more you will get the 'Jax Version' of the conversation -- Hello I am an natural blonde, my brain is an etch-a-sketch with broken drawing handles 5. I am physically violent when I laugh... this is mostly dangerous to anyone within arms reach.. I LOVE standup comics, it is also with movies, TV, live shows and it doesn't matter if we are in public or not... When I find something rip roaring funny I smack my knee or leg or side occasionally or more often if you ask my family I smack the person next to me...my poor husband and children could probably claim abuse... oh by the way I don't hit like a sissy... 6. I will organize-clean anything.... It is sad but true... I don't have OCD but I absolutely detest piles-stacks, don't get me wrong right now I have three baskets of laundry in my living room, they are clean I just haven't gotten to putting them away, they have been clean since Wednesday - However if I can't find something then it has to be organized... I especially hate sticky... I can handle any mess but sticky...it has seeped into my friends lives... If I can't handle your living space we just meet in public or my house... Otherwise I tend to clean or pickup while I visit you, I have managed through sheer will to cut it down to the area we are actively in most specifically just the space that is within my reach... everyone always know where I am sitting so it has its uses… my friends laugh at me but they can and have used it to their benefit... LOL. You have to be able to laugh at yourself but if you can’t …. I hope I don’t know you. Quirks... foibles, peculiarity, oddity, eccentricity, idiosyncrasy -- What are your six? June 11 AC Died!!!! ARRRGH!ast night our AC died... We live in Texas it's June and even at night it stays hot -- example its 7pm and is 95 [35 celisus]. Ah!! the last thing we need is to have to pay to have the AC repaired or replaced. We replaced our inside uint about 1 1/2 ago and cheap is not the word we could use for this. The whole thing together would of been around $8,000. The inside unit was probably the age of the freakin house but the outside unit was only about 10 years old. Anyway... got off track... Chris called in sick last night - stomach bug going around... which is something he never does so when he got overheated last night he tought it was because he was sick. I am in an ambien coma and I like it warmer so it didn't bother me. When I woke up this morning I honestly didn't notice - Bryan complained about it but he is a teenager and that's his job. But after a few minutes I realized he was right and checked the unit,,, inside looked fine... the outside wires can freeze over so I checked the unit and nothing. I let Chris sleep in and when he woke up I asked him about it. He did the same as me but remembered the AC installer talking to him about different parts. Note... I always hang around and ask questions, probably to many but I need to know, we are the ones living here and unless the installer lets us have a direct line to him 24 hrs we need to know what is going on so we can rescue oursleves - enough to make sure it doesn't make things worse. Chris hangs out to I am unsure if it was me who got him in the habit or it was part of his make up before me, either way, we take turns... don't want to scare or piss off the installer. lol. We priced the repair and we so don't have the money to do any of that. So we started our usual research mode... luckily I can actually read something other than the internet. So I pulled out the real paper yellow pages... found a local company that supplies the same external unit we have to repair-installation companies... a very nice lady gave me the name of a parts supply warehouse that can sell parts to the general public and I called... they had the part we needed.. and instead of costing 350$ for the part and installation.. it cost us 15$... that's right 15$... oh and the manual labor was provided by the hubby... makes him feel manly & useful. lol. June 10 Jub Hunting Sucks… let me count the ways.
Here are a few of my favorites from an article/blog about how crazy Job Hunting can be and how crazy it is making me now.
Job-hunting SUCKS! http://www.theinsanedomain.com/Articles/lists/jobhunting.htm Applying for ANY job to pay your rent, but no one will hire you because you're overqualified and know that you'll be quitting the second you get another job offer somewhere else. Finding a mistake on your resume ONLY after you've mailed it out to everyone, and the mistake is in your phone number. Having to write a "personal statement" when really, all you want is a decent job that pays well and some coworkers that don't suck. Having people point out or suggest jobs to you that have NOTHING to do with what you really do, and they just don't get it. Looking at job listings online and they're filled with stupid "WORK FROM HOME" listings and other useless garbage. Job titles that make no sense, are too ambiguous or are just random letters grouped together. Having someone put in a good word for you, but it turns out they're horrible at their job and/or hated and you're not considered simply because they're an idiot. The bullshit of cover letters and personal statements. Trying to sum up what you did in your last job when really, what you did was your job and everyone else's, but you can't put it all down without looking like you're lying about it. Asking your friend to hand in your resume, and they end up spilling food/coffee on it, crumpling it up and THEN hand it in, or just completely forget. Spending tons of time on a resume when you know someone is going to spend maybe 10 seconds looking at it, decide they don't like your name and then move onto the next one. Knowing that one or two page document isn't going to sum you up as a person or a worker, but you're forced to make one anyway. Emailing your resume in, then realizing you forgot to attach it to the email. Then you send another email with it attached, only now you've forgotten to put the cover letter in the message of the email, or attach it. You send a third email with it all and then find out you've been sending them all to the wrong email address. Companies that take MONTHS to go through the interviewing and hiring process. Not finding ANY job postings that are suited to what you do in ANY way for weeks on end. Having people asking you "How is the job hunt going?" over and over. Having to go over your resume each time you send it out and never being totally happy with it. Winding up in a company where creative ideas are squashed, and your only incentive is to just do enough not to get fired. Years later you end up as an unskilled idiot who can't get hired anywhere decent ever again. Job ads that ask for everything under the sun but really, they don't need half of it for the actual job. Finding a great job to apply for and you make it to the interview, they basically tell you that you're the best person for the job so you get all excited and then they hire someone else. Interviews that you know aren't going well within the first two seconds, but you can't get up and run screaming from the place. Job postings that lie or mislead you into thinking you have a shot, or that the job might actually be interesting. Job posting requirements made by the HR department instead of the actual department you'll be working for, so they make no sense and ask for tons of things that only robots have. Being thanked for your time after the interview when it's just been one big waste of time and you both know it. Laughing at something you think the interviewer is joking about, only to find out they're quite serious. Being interviewed by about five people all at once, with them asking you questions, scribbling down what you answer with and then whispering amongst themselves.
May 08 GRADUATION! ....FINALLY.
Hello from the long lost ghost of friends from the past... I come bearing good news and a story to tell. First the good news - TODAY I GRADUATE FROM THE UNIVERSITY... I will have a Bachelor of Fine Arts, Art History & Criticism. Which translates to - I can draw a straight line with a ruler - tell you how it fits and is important in history - then criticize it. LOL. Now for the story... I will make it as short as possible. My last post was in August of 08, those of you who know the economy has taken a sharp dive, especially the real estate market, foreclosures etc. Anyway, I was working 60 hours a week on average - or basically every waking moment. While being a realtor gave me some freedom to work from home and make my own schedule it has a double edge sword that way. Of course I did my best not to fumble but I did... the upscale home construction company I worked with had to let a great percentage of staff go - I managed to be retained through the first wave of lay offs but did not survive the second. So the majority of my clients were through this company which put me in a bind in addition to the fact my other clients couldn't get funding for various reasons so they had to push back their home plans. Which left me scrambling for more clients to save my business. By October of 2008 we knew it was over and I closed up shop. During this past two years I have tried to provide financial growth for my family. I can work any job you throw at me but I wanted to find the one which would be the one that would let us get out of the pay check to paycheck lifestyle and actually give us the leg up. The one thing anyone ever said to me was well if you had your degree... I was passed over tons of times that someone had been picked because they had a degree and that my 15 years of management experience was great but I needed my degree. To that ends -= those of you friends whom have visited me in the past know --- I have been working toward that goal for quite awhile. Unfortunately life, finances and simply the lack of time always is a factor, add in medical issues and you have a nice cocktail of interesting ingredients to an average everyday life --- whom has freaking Murphy as her #1 fan. lol While this was happening I found myself getting more and more depressed. My Fibromyalgia was off the charts with 'FM days' the medications were not working, stress and fear a big factor in setting everything off. After the decision to close up shop I pretty much collapsed for about a month. Pain the depression from all the struggles won. It is hard for me to admit I allowed myself to succumb to 'the dark forces' [lol] but I try to see it as allowing my body, mind, and spirit to recharge -- it makes it sound prettier. lol. I met with my doctor before classes began and made appointments during and after so that I could monitor my health with a watchdog handy... I will go till I drop this way I had a system of checks and balances. The doctor admitted that he was extremely worried about me -- I agreed that I was worried about myself my darkness threatened to overwhelm me but I wasn't going to let it win. He told me he could see the change of coming out of the dark and was glad to see it. After many discussions with my husband and the boys we decided that we could make it if we clamped down -- no frills [which we never had any real frills anyway] budget -- so I could just go to school and slam out the remaining 5 courses - studio courses are like a lecture class and lab mixed into one - each class would be 3 hours long twice a week -- ouch! But I wanted to do it - I needed to do it. I ended up registering late - had to appeal to the school to let me attend spring semester -- obliviously I succeeded but not without a struggle. Then I had to appeal for certain classes to make a schedule work for me to graduate this semester. There have been so many ups and downs - family - finance - health - friends - car dying at mid semester - professors - course work -- wow to much to tell now. In the end -- today I will be walking across the stage to accept my diploma and I am so excited and proud. I will have my husband, the boys and a few friends their to see [take pics if they remember to use the camera - lol] - I want the boys to see me walk across there and see that you can achieve your goals even if delayed. lol. I am proud that I found a man who is a love and friend who doesn't only support with words but actions. He has been their for me in so many ways, from letting me spew petty moments, holding my hand through pain, letting me follow through even though he knows my body is at break point because he knows that if I don't not only will my body break but my spirit. To say I am blessed is truth. We, I have had struggles and will continue to have struggles however we have the blessing of going it together. Now that I have my freaking 'piece of paper' [diploma] I will probably get the I am 'over qualified' speech but I am diving in anyway. The job hunt is starting and I have some set ideas of where to go -- but for now I am going to enjoy getting my 'piece of paper', my cap and gown are waiting we walk at 6:30pm tonight... Yeah Baby! I have missed talking with my friends and I apologize for being so absent these last months, I hope to visit with you soon and hope you still want to visit with me as well. If not.. I understand and wish you only the best and I will keep you in my thoughts. Blessed Be. |
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